For the past week, I have been wanting to sit down quietly and blog for a solid half an hour.Never had the time and just now when I did and was trying to sieve through my brain for the thing that I wanted to blog about, it never came to me.so I thought the most appropriate thing to blog about is my obsession with keeping myself busy.
Days went by in a blur and I had difficulty telling them apart, or recalling what happened yesterday and the day before.I sort of liked this feeling but it was not until i laid down a tuition timetable for myself that I realized I have pushed myself too far and squeezed in too many assignments thus far.
Now I'm managing 10 lessons every week for 5 students, almost like a full-time tutor. This coming week will be the first time I'm trying out the new schedule and I'm not sure if it will work out the way I wanted it to.
Sometimes I questioned why would I work so hard? My only reason for this is my obsess with extra income that also comes with a sense of achievement and satisfaction that really comes at the time of spending the money.
Meanwhile, I'm also getting increasingly distanced from NUS and anything remotely school-related.For a convenient proof I haven't been checking my school mails and am blissfully unsure of the administrative dates I have to keep in mind in order to continue to keep my place reserved.I feel that NUS will be soon out of my world, out of sight out of mind.
That simple.
Something else that can be as simple as this is love.
The relationship has taken several turns and I'm just happy that it's back on track for now. Thought there's this empty feeling inside my heart telling me that something is just not right, I don't know if it justify a change in the status-quo.
Being a timid person that I've secretly always have been, wait and see seems to be the only appropriate action to take.
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