I am having this nervous attack again. It'll come all over
me, in waves, during which my heart feels like it's being pinched, at regular
interval. This happens whenever I confront my relationship, in a way to admit
that there's something wrong with it.
Things seem ok if I choose to be
blissfully ignorant, but I do find myself brooding over the things he's done
which hurt me, throughout the day. They hit me with sprouts of mild depressions
every time I think. And I just cannot take my mind completely off these things,
because le brain just switches to this mode whenever it's not occupied. Here am
I having a relaxing holiday, so I have lots of time to spare, and lots of time
to torture myself this way.
It is a wonder how another human being can inflict pain on
you without having to whisper a word, or be physically near you. Because you can
do the job entirely on your own, and the trigger lies within you.
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