Of course it's because of my (or maybe no longer) little brother.
This little boy that you see here. Yes. HIM. He has been the source of my frustration, my dismay and angst. I used to complain many times in despair about having to take care of him, over his homework, and was so anxious (for no reason now it seems) about his future. My emotions were so negatively affected by him just being there and all the restraints and horrendous possibilities that can arise that I almost wanted to do what the T-shirt in the pic reads: put him up for adoption or something.
Nah just kidding! (Ok I admit my thoughts always tend to rack up the negative stuff, and I gotta change this.)
The previous moment I was still deep in woes over him, and then suddenly the nuisance stopped. The dismay gone and my angst disappeared. Like puff. Le brother and every issue of his stopped bothering me. Well, it's also true that when he stopped posing as a nuisance himself, the issues naturally disappear too.
I'm starting to feel more at ease with le brother now. I've learnt to relax and just enjoy the quiet moments and his presence. Ok honestly in our past few encounters I've actually enjoyed joking around with him a lot, and were happily looking forward to the next time when we'll have our usual dinner bonding time again. On his side, le brother has grown up. He has his opinions in many things (even when it doesn't cut me and most people the correct way). He's become more of a gentleman. He carries himself well and is able to come up with reasons for most of the things he does. That shows that he's rational.
The most heart-warming of all these, well, is that le brother actually entrusts me with many of confessions: recently he's told me a lot about this girl whom he likes. He also asks my opinions on many things and we have great time sharing our thoughts on the many things regarding the present and future.
All in all, I'm feeling blessed and happy to be around le brother. It's a sense of security and comfort that I never have associated with him. Maybe part of the positivity has come from changes in the way I think.
But there's no denying, the little brother has grown up! :D
