No title will capture the gist of this entry, because
it’s about the wealth of intense gratitude I have been feeling for the life I’m
living now. It’s simply great, more than great, the simplicity of which is
beyond the master of my language, the striking effect of which will be with me
in a long time to come.
Every now and then, I paused in whatever I was working
on, and looked out of the window. My mind will be overwhelmed by the
tranquility outside, and the coziness inside the window. My room is the
physical representation of the wealth of materialistic and non-materialist
privileges that I have been blessed with. It is the epitome of the sweet reward
of a journey travelled long and hard. The window overlooking a very British
weather symbolizes my access to the education, to the culture and everything UK
has to offer here. The books, my laptop and every tool and stationary belonging
to me, is the details that complete the reward.
I am literally living my dream.
There was, at numerous occasions, where I visualized myself
enjoying life in the UK. Most of them
were self-contained, I dared to dream big. But even the bravest person would
not harbor blinding faith. Like many others, I had doubts over whether the
dream would really come true, whether my efforts would really pay off.
Nonetheless, I must admit these thoughts were quickly dismissed, if they were
considered in the first place at all, in favor of my endless fantasizing.
Many of those around me expressed disbelief that I had
given up everything I had in chase of a dream that had little hope of materializing.
In retrospect, my heart skips a little when I try to reconcile my then brave decisions
with the entire situation. The decision didn’t seem to fit very well into the
larger picture considering how getting picked up by the PSC was such a close
shave, and how rigorous the selection process was.
But I have made it, and for that I am very proud of
myself.
It was probably the best decision I have ever made and
will ever make in my entire life—being proactive to change my life for the
better, and fighting against all odds for a dream I knew I deserve.
An acquaintance I used to work with on a brief project
that ended prematurely, whom I haven’t talked to since that encounter, called
me a dream chaser. She hopes to chase her dreams one day like how I chased for
mine. Closer friends expressed awe and admiration for my brave decision. These
were like icing on a cake, such statements made me feel happy because my endeavor
is touching the lives of many, even a much distanced acquaintance.
However, I must say that the journey has not come to
an end. On the contrary, studying here on scholarship is just a beautiful
beginning. Though it’s clichéd, it’s very much true that I have moved into a
brand new chapter of my life, and the future will never be the same. Though it’s
unwritten, It can only be better than it could ever get. For that I’m very sureJ I have proven
just how hard I have tried for that scholarship, now I am going to show myself
all the good things I can make out of my life, my time here and the scholarship
itselfJ
