Make some and Break some

A few things have happened recently and in my opinion, each and every single one of them is worth penning down. For the exact reason that so many wonderful things took place, I had been waiting for the chance to pour them out and share the joy. 
1. I overcome my impulse and my false sense of incapability with the help of S, my best friend and advisor so far. For a few days I had been feeling uneasy about the presence and suspected supervision of an assistant editor. She seemed to derive personal enjoyment from finding faults in me. After a few incidents I was at the verge of quitting and calling off the 
internship altogether, but S's words kept me going and trying. Now I don't complain neither do I feel unfairly treated. I adopted a healthy mentality and work thinking that it is for my own good. 


Standing back from the whole saga now, I feel all the more enlightened that everyone has his or her own personalities and attitudes towards others. It just happens that I don't particularly agree with that of the assistant editor. Besides that, there is no further complication and I am just happy that things have been working smoothly ever since. 


2. I managed to pull through a hectic day with uncompleted write-ups,submission, scholarship interview and accessment, work-related interview and tuition assignment. 
I would never be able to imagine myself doing all these and afterwards still can manage a smile but that was exactly what I did. Was critically nervous the night before, with a write-up to rush and submitted the next morning, with an interview with lawyer to be conducted early in the morning, his quotation added into the article, which was to be submitted with photos. I used every single way to make sure things will work out smoothly, including 


S's encouragement, once again, helps tremendously and helped me ease my freaking nerves. These two incidents helped me see the value of S in my life and how he mattered more than I have imagined. A person's value is only shown in times of crisis, I guess it is the same for friends. 


3. Johnny scored a 25 out of 30 for his chemistry, and the marks lost was due to his carelessness and not his inability to understand the question or apply the concept. I was so happy when he showed me the marks. The fact that he showed me the paper meant he took the exam seriously and he knew I would be happy to see it, so in a way, I am his motivation and that just makes me feel so blissful. Apparently Johnny is smart and it eases my mind knowing that as long as he work hard, he is right on track for the big challenge next year.


4. I was rejected by the University of Warwick, that has helped to define myself both to my own understanding and those around me. I felt the urge of penning this down even though it still upsets me, because by that I am coming to terms with failures and getting closer to self-improvement by drawing lessons from such failures. Admittedly, applying as an independent person not affiliated to any institution has disadvantaged me, ultimately I have no one to blame as I myself had let the chance flow through my fingers. What do I have to gain from such a realization? 


(a) Chance and opportunity, once they are missed, are hardly coming by again. So seize the moment and do what you need to do fast, now. No excuse. 


(b) One can never be too good for something and there is always something to learn. My failure has motivated me and sparked the desire to learn new things and make myself more competitive. 


5. I had a long and inspiring discussion with our editor that I have always liked personally. She is so inspiring and motivating, and it was a joy working with her. She stimulated me to constantly search for better and more innovative ideas, she exposed me to the many skills and expectations of a journalist. I can tell from her sparking eyes when she talked about her work as a journalist that she loved the job and loved her life. That was rejuvenating and work was no longer mundane. I felt refreshed and energised after we exchanged our thoughts and ideas and I realised she was the editor for a reason. She has the cut for a newsroom editor, as well as the new-sensitiveness and passion essential to the job. Simply love her <3<3<3


6. Got my own story from a street interview! His story of working three jobs to support his children through college really inspired me. I'm glad that the editor showed interest and I could now pen the story down as my first ever self-discovered story (well technically, since my last article about transexuals was not done out of my naturally born initiative and the previous article about rare notes-collector was developed from an original piece handed to me) The editor approved of my other potential story as well, saying that it is really interesting and worth going after for. Great! gonna keep myself busy with both then! 


Looking back at the past, I have made some and break some. Looking forward to the future, I have yet so much to experience. The most immediate one being the welcome party for Burhan's friends coming all the way from Germany. Really looking forward to the weekend!